Sunday, September 16, 2018

Orange Theory Fitness Centen

The common thread that exists among us as sentient human beings exists in the living of our individual lives. Daily we all encounter multitudes of faces similarly existing within the common thread of living out their own lives. And, upon occasion, we come across someone whose existence has been wrought even though we personally do not see it. They cover the inside hurt with a facade of smiles and light conversations, but inside their brokenness remains in check, unknown to the world around them. 
Yet as they hurt, happenstance brings outside contact with another person whose mere presence brings a dose of invigoration and hope to the one suffering silently. This contact cultivates a healing process by which health in many forms grows exponentially. Soon, another contact follows suite, adding strength and encouragement and before long, a collective gathering has unknowingly taken place around the one, forming a protective barrier that creates a safe and hospitable environment in which the one may return to stable health.  
While reading this lengthy review, it is paramount to bear in mind component of immediate family cannot be overstated. Having them in my airspace breathed life back into me, but also did many others fill a much-needed gap in my existence. And so, this review is just that: the case of my Orange Theory Fitness- Centennial family. It may be lengthy, but I hope it proves worthy of your time, as my words come to me through much hidden pain and darkness. 
On May 4th, 2018 my plane touched down in Las Vegas, returning me to the arms of my wife and my daughter after and incredulous 10-month deployment to Iraq. While I dare not speak on my family’s behalf, knowing full well my deployment caused their own grief, I do speak for the slow deterioration of my own existence to the experiences I encountered while deployed. In short, I came home wanting only to surround myself with those that loved me, in order to regain my own sense of value as a member of the human species. Until recently, I did not know how bad of a place my mind lived when I returned home. My wife, my daughter, my grandson, and I gathered together and started the reunification process. But it was my wife, Debbie, that introduced me to the group of people at OTF-C that would play a vital role in my recovery. 
Deb signed me up for an unlimited plan, allowing me access to the studio anytime I could attend. We started a regular routine of 7 a.m. taking only a day off per week on average. My first encounter that I recall with detail came from the head of the physical fitness department (Lead Coach) came from Coach Keith as he initiated the torture (not really) with his normal “welcome, welcome, welcome!” quickly followed by his running up and down the aisle behind the treadmills motivated me to my first All Out. 
When the pure exhaustion quickly turned into rewarding endorphins and as the internal chemical solution temporarily released me from the burden of the deployment, I was immediately hooked on OTF. That first routine from Keith set the bar high. The strength, knowledge, and wisdom Keith possesses ensures success for each and every class he leads, inspiring those in attendance to push harder, longer, and farther. His willingness to remain after each class and work with individuals increases the passing of knowledge, enhancing client capability and drive to succeed. 
Of course, Keith must share the wealth of changing lives by adding coach Jus early on in the summer, Coach Eugene in the evenings, who not only demonstrated a keen eye for observation, but created an enthusiastic atmosphere by granting a reprieve from the run by calling out “BAAASE!” into the microphone! The newest addition, Brie, whose self-proclaimed short height is countered by her dynamic personality as she leaps on top the machines so we can all see her. Always pushing us to go harder, she encourages us brilliantly lighting up the board in red as we catch fire! 
Then there’s coach Amanda. The always happy, joyful, positive, and simply delightful coach Amanda. With a smile she brings light into even the darkest of orange rooms, whose restorative energy reduces stress by simply talking with her. She can be read like a book. Her joy and happiness come from deep inside and no façade or false impression of joy exists. It comes from her love of coaching, but even more so her love for the people whose lives she impacts for the better. She loves the people she coaches, plain and simple.  This amazing team of coaches, pushing all of us to be better than we were five minutes ago, revealed my own personal potential I thought I had lost overseas.
What can be said about the girls behind the front counter? Ever worked in retail? Or been on the receiving end of an upset patron whose heart rate monitor isn’t monitoring? Ever had to deal with a constant-flowing and open faucet of sweat and body fluids that can be potentially slewn from one end of the building to the other? How about conducting restroom and shower clean-up duties while still managing to maintain professionalism of wearing a smile, even at 4 a.m.? These examples serve as a sample of the daily lives of the front desk ladies of OTF-C. 
The under-appreciated group consists of girls and ladies from all walks of life, all while possessing a like-minded mission of making the experience for each patron the best possible at that moment. Always quick with a smile and an encouraging anecdote, I encountered immediate warmth and compassion from Taylor and Daija, two young women that provide non-stop energy and support, always ready to a workout with any patron. Aeo, who saw fit to honor ME with a member of the month (seriously? I mean, really….) for August and the team is unmatched. These ladies will make a name for themselves. But for now, we the patrons of OTF-C, maintain our greedy possession of their willingness to go above and beyond. 
I miss Dee, who disappeared from my radar, shame on me, shortly after joining. Dee and her husband, soon to be mentioned below were more family that I could count on when I didn’t know I needed them. And Sarah, former Air Force and was the one behind the counter that truly brought to light the extreme differences in my countenance since returning home. Her ability to identify with what I had been enduring proved her keen intuitiveness and open heart allowed me to see the changes personally. 
But these ladies all look up to the strength of the one in shoes charge and care they reside. Dealing with what they do, their leader remains the bedrock of strength that sees them through some pretty sticky situations. (Yes…I said sticky.) This position of lead staff at the front desk cannot be filled by just anyone with the expectation of success. In order for true success to happen, this person must embody the values of strong and dynamic leadership with a servant’s heart. 
I know I met Alyssa first day, but her presence became overshadowed, and rightly so, by the workout. I say rightly so as with any initial membership, the primary focus should be on the OTF concept, followed quickly by the people behind it. Alyssa quickly followed behind the concept, and her leadership skills daily on display showed her to be a natural-born leader. Remaining calm in all conditions, her heart of giving back to the community plays well right into her support for her staff. But here’s what sets her apart from most “front desk leads” that I’ve encountered: while she maintains the strength, knowledge, and wisdom to stand her ground or execute the enforcement of standards, she never sways from what drives her to do what she does: she loves people. Flat-out, un-abrasive, and unconditional love for people. And it has been an honor to be accepted by her during a low point in my life, receiving back a great deal of dignity.
I would be amiss if I failed to mention those that became my little “clique,” if you will. While the vast number of people I personally encountered during any given workout on any given day with any given hour proved to be invaluable to me, our daily ritual of the 7am class opened the door for several deeper bonds to form. Most of these ladies rallied around my wife prior to my return, and I love them for it. Deon. Jen. Janie. Carolyn. I cannot tell you the value you possess in my eyes, knowing the difference you made by simply being in the presence of my wife while SHE endured what I put her through. She doesn’t show it, but yes…she did endure a lot and you all gave her more than you may be aware. I’m going to need you again real soon.
As much as I appreciate these ladies, and I do, I found many others regularly simply breathing value back into my life. Tyler, Bill, Smiley, Eli, A.J., and more often than not, simply anyone stepping on the treadmill next to me whose presence and demand for more effort pushed me to strain maximum effort during each workout….all gave by simply being the human next to me and simply helped me want to be better than I was an hour ago. But….two people stand out loudly in my brain. For nearly three months I daily found myself bookended by these two, and with each passing fist-bump or high-five, a silent and unspoken rebuilding took place in my life. No words were really exchanged aside from the “good job” or “let’s go.” Little did either of them know that with each passing mile, each elevation or pace change on each run, we watched each other with encouraging eyes, building each other up, pushing each other to be better. I found myself being pushed to be better healed with each passing day. Just simply existing, lifting more weight, rowing faster, running farther, with hardly a word spoken. Karli and Nick, you may not know the depths of effect you had on me, but you did. I hardly know either of you, but that’s what makes the connection meaningful: none of us had anything personal to gain except for the savage improvements we wanted for ourselves and for each other. You two merely went about your daily lives, showed up for a workout, and changed a life. 
So, yeah…this Orang Theory Fitness Centennial place you’ve been hearing about? It’s a building with black floors and orange lights, lough music and intense workouts. It has machines that want you to die. Showers to refresh you after you feel like you died. All manner of things that can be replaced or substituted. But what makes it priceless are the people inside. They are without a doubt…..irreplaceable. 
Todd W. Hine

MAJ, U.S. Army

Monday, January 22, 2018

Stretched, but Not Broken


 
When I was a kid I recall a toy by the name of Stretch Armstrong. If I’m not mistaken, it was a predecessor to all the other stretch action figures that arrived on market shortly after for guys like Hulk Hogan of wrestling fame. Stretch Armstrong was an actions figure made of rubber. You could grab him by his arms or legs and pull and he would stretch as far as little boy arms could reach, and yet he wouldn’t break. His head, made of hard plastic, remained in place and would not move. And he has become the physical manifestation of my life over the last two months.
Having deployed before, I knew full-well going into the holiday season things would be difficult in this place, being so far from home and missing so many pivotal events going on back home. Missing birthdays, missing Thanksgiving, missing Christmas, missing New Year. Missing spending my birthday with family. Those were all on the radar, I thought I was prepared for them, and entered the timeframe of Thanksgiving through the week after my birthday thinking falsely I was ready.
What I could not prepare myself for was the challenges I have encountered as a leader, and at this particular point in my writing, I want to ensure you do not receive a sense of sorrow, regret, self-pity, or anything that would take away from the growth I have gleaned from the experiences over the last two months, possibly even going back to August. For what has taken place here in my life finds its origins dating back to our first days on ground. I’ll save those stories for the campfire back home.
Here I sit with the end of January fast approaching and my last three months of this deployment sneaking up around the corner, and I daydream of a boy’s childhood toy, Stretch Armstrong. Let the story begin.
This unit has at the helm a commander. He is high in rank, one step away from a one-star. Next in line is a guy one rank below him as the deputy, and remains one the most balanced leaders I have met in my career. Below and/or next to the deputy are three gold-leaf field grade leaders that were informed back in July that they would be running the company. I happen to be one of those field grade, gold-leaf, middle management, go-between, conduit, decision maker and approval seeker leaders.
One of the fellows works in an ops capacity. He takes care of the unit on a day-by-day basis. Good guy too. But he has no responsibility outside the unit itself. The other two, of which I am one, have great influence outside the unit. Whereas my responsibilities directly influence Iraqi Senior Officers, his reaches to higher levels of coalition forces departments. Together, we could have made an incredible difference immeasurable. Could have.
This counterpart of mine gabbed ahold of one of my arms and began pulling back in August, much to my disappointment, and has yet to let go. He has allowed me on several occasions to think he was going to let go, but not only did he not let go, he tried to tie my arm into a knot. This one in particular has been the biggest disappointment of the deployment. Bitterness set in rather quickly, early on, but this has become one the success stories for me personally.
When I finally acknowledged the truth of what was actually going on between us, I at first denied it, hid from it, and attempted to run from it. That tactic didn’t work. What did work was coming to the realization that each confrontation required a standing against, but with a heart of forgiveness as well. Since November I have been practicing the fine art of confronting, challenging, yet with a heart of not holding onto a grudge in the process. It worked. I pulled my arm back to its normal state.
As for the other three appendages? This is pretty cool how it worked out, for I happen to have three guys working directly for me, each of whom have taken up on of the other extensions and without malice and whether knowing it or not have attempted to pull apart my body and mind and heart. Without addressing each in their own respective rights, I will say each has been on the receiving end my corrective actions, and while they have all kept me up at night, it is my own gain that I get from them I appreciate the most. I have had to confront within me some fears I didn’t want to admit through their personalities as subordinates to my position.
Going full circle to my beginning, the last two months put me in a serious rut. I’ve already explained the nature of a deployment during the holiday season. The compensating factor for most deployments generally and commonly can be found within the ranks and peers of the unit within which one serves. This year, this deployment, I found none that provided the depth and breadth of brotherhood for which I yearned daily. The absence and void could not be replaced. Things became so low for me I lost all desire to RUN.
But coming through the struggle now as the end of the month draws near, I have in my mind Psalm 103:2-5 Bless the Lord, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
My level of communication on social media dwindled to only the rare exception, such as New Year's eve etc. I have been in regular contact with Debbie over facetime, and while she sees much of the goings on, I keep things soft so she can have solid input and discussion with me to keep my head level. It's been equally hard for her as well, but thank you to Tony and his family and Sara and Matt for constantly checking on her and my daughter to make sure they are doing okay. While things are hard here, when things go bad back home its a literal tragedy for me here. Its a relief to know you have my back during this time.

I've enjoyed the times with my daughter and grandson, but the big heartache came on Christmas when I had technical difficulties watching them open presents. That one hurt, until we got facetime running on daughter's phone. Videos fell away. Pictures fell away. The blog fell away. My routine became going to work and coming home to go to bed. I think a follow-on writing should address takers vs givers. Until then, I have some studying to do. Thank you for listening. I'm ready to come home.

 

Friday, December 8, 2017

To My Wife This Christmas

Not enough. Simply and mindfully not enough. I have in my life a woman that remains steadfast and confident in her entire being. My deployment decision became a mutual decision that she fully supported, but I know that it has taken a toll on her. She has had to hold down the fort dealing with items that normally I would have resolved quickly and easily. Instead, she's come to rely on close friends, which is also great, but the fact that she cannot rely on my presence cannot be disputed. This woman, my wife, is my teammate and I am hers. Together, we make things work pretty darn well. In the absence of one, the other tends to struggle, even if for little things.

Christmas What Year??


Without her, I would simply starve or devolve to ramen noodles and iceberg lettuce. Without me, she has to replace light bulbs 35' in the air, disassemble, repair, and reassemble the entire pool filtering system, manage to keep two golden retriever swimmers from drowning the house, plus working a full-time job and taking care of the house and those within and a multitude of other things requiring dual hands.
Yet she has managed to find the time to send me several care packages that have sustained me physically and boosted my morale beyond mere survival into a satisfied life while on this junkyard of a post. Boxes of delights she knows I enjoy including everything from pretzels to a diffuser that makes my room smell like a spa. She has spent hour upon hour dehydrating meats of various forms, vacuum sealing them and sending them over with bags of much needed fiber to stock my fridge and supply me with high-quality meat. I've resorted to freezing the bags of jerky to keep them fresh I have so much.
My Thanksgiving sucked. I'll just put that out there. It was not good. I truly wasn't expecting it to be something incredible, but it would have been much more enjoyable had I even had a small taste of turkey. Then we rolled into what is now the Christmas Holiday season, and moral is pretty low. Not just mine either. As a teacher (or former teacher), I have loved Christmas. Decorating my room, playing holiday music for the kids you name it I love it. This year, while here in Iraq, I pre-ordered lights and streamers for the office, but around here, the spirit just seems to not be catching on.
Then my wife's most recent three care packages arrived. Each one was full of Christmassy goodies that have been spread around the office and inside my room like an indoor carnival. Crème de la crème: she and my daughter put together a project of a Christmas tree made of felt, button sewn on it in various locations, and a plethora of ornaments made of several shapes and sizes felt that hangs from each button. Then they were able to get kids and teachers from Walter Bracken to do the same and the box arrived just yesterday, 08DEC17.


I immediately hung the tree on the door leading to the hallway from my office and had several guys from my section hang the ornaments. Decorating the tree is a family event, and since my wife and daughter and grandson are so far away from me at the moment, I shared in this with the guys. I have no idea how they received it, but it meant a lot to me. At the time, I had no idea what she had done. In the care package was a tin box and a card. I figured they were "do not open until." gifts. Then I facetimed with her this morning while she was wrapping up her first and much deserved trip to Hawaii. She informed me to open the card and the tin, which spilled the beans. The tree and ornaments were destined for my room, not the office.
Had I known, I wouldn't have shared. Yup..I would been greedy and selfish and kept all that beauty for myself. My wife, my daughter, friends and kiddos from Bracken. All put effort into making my Christmas special. And it will be. I kept much of the stuff for myself, don't get me wrong. I have a little decoration going on as you can see, but I also know that as I sing my wife's praises here, I also know she does just this sorta thing: she makes people happy through her giving. She is a giver. While I would love to keep her giving all to myself, I am so proud to be able to see her efforts and so many other's efforts to hopefully bring happiness to others in this hum-drum location.

In my own little slice of in-heaven, I put to good use the vast assortment of other decorations my wife sent, plus a couple other do-dads that I ordered, and the remaining ornaments that didn't fit on the tree at work. I made myself a heater-tree, that will suffice nicely. Presents from home will be placed under the tree the night before Christmas and I might even do a live show of opening for Christmas. Thank you daughter, thank you Walter Bracken, and thank you Wife!

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Deja Vu'


Sunday, November 5th, 2017. Please keep my wife and daughter in your thoughts. Debbie is sick with the flu (?) and my daughter is looking at a big repair bill since I cant help.
A memory came back to haunt me this week. Maybe not a memory as much as an impression since what arose within me this week came from my time here during my last deployment ten years ago. One of the consequences, if you will, of a deployment is the state of perpetual of tiredness.  This is the remembrance that dawned on me.

I don’t mean being sleepy. This state of tiredness has nothing to do with being tired per se. For instance, pulling the night watch eliminates sleep from the daily diet of bodily needs, producing sleepiness. This is normal and expected, and after a day of recovery, all is well. Night watch isn’t all that bad either since the building becomes a ghost town and no one makes contact with you. The following day as a day off allows for an additional respite from human contact as well. Of course, I don’t get to pull night duty.

I’m also not referring to the tired feelings of having just completed a marathon. Nope, I know that feeling all too well, and while a day or two recovery will inevitably provide a return to full-duty status, the moments after the marathon itself are exhausting. Yet, still the tired feelings are not what I’m describing.

Then quite possibly the argument comes by way of being tired emotionally. Strong argument since a deployment does wreak havoc with emotional well-being thanks to the distance from family members from whom we all gain strength. Yet this emotional state of tiredness, as strong an argument as it is, still only adds to the principle to which I am referring: a perpetual state of drained exhaustion.

Personally, I feel it predominantly in my eyes. My eye sockets have this heaviness and puffiness to them that no amount of caffeinated beverages can compensate. Even after a rock-solid 7 hours of blissful sleep, I arrive at my desk on a relatively slow admin day and the exercise in futility of keeping my eyelids above half-mast drains me. It requires herculean effort to maintain constant vigil, let alone any resemblance of situational awareness. Perhaps the events of October exposed this state of being?

October beat me down hard. 90% of my difficulties came from interpersonal conflicts and confrontations, by the numbers. In comparison, measuring difficulties using a standards of measurement of significant emotional experiences, a few events that took place this month shook me up pretty well. Maybe the events that I experienced during this month only seemed that dramatic to me and were in fact minor occasions of discomfort to others, but they happened to me.

Two major disappointments happened to me in October. The first began in September when I discovered I could participate in the Marine Corps Marathon Forward, allowing me to run the race at a post way up north here in Iraq. I checked with my travel agent guy here in the unit, who promised me he could get me to the post when the time came. I specified I could only go over three days. A week before the race, he informed me I would be gone for an indiscriminant time, possibly up to a week. I had to back out. Still haven’t completed the run.

The disappointment of not being able to participate in the MCM Forward resulted in the second emotional event of the month: hard-hit illness. I became so upset with not being able to attend the event, that I went for a long run that night. I left right after work when the parts-per-million dust and smoke particles were at their upmost for the end of the day. For a half marathon equivalent, I ran this tiny little post and by the time I wrapped it up, my gun hip was sending sharp pains into me and I could not breathe to save myself. The amount of garbage I inhaled caused a serious illness that last two weeks with a trip to the medical center and switched to a shoulder harness to heel my hip muscles. Haven't run for the last two weeks.  

I have had other significant events happen that related directly to my job. For days I had visions of appearing before a Senate Hearing. I cannot begin to describe them here, but it has been a challenging month all things considered. My morale dropped and the frequent contact I have with my wife plus the weekend visits with my daughter and grandson kept me going. And the care packages filled with jerky!!!! Holy cow(literal and figurative use) WIFE!! You made the most amazing cow jerky and I have savored every ounce. 
I stayed silent otherwise for the month. No videos posted, no blog postings. Only a few text messages back home. I withdrew, I admit, which is a signal that all is not well for this introvert. For the month of November I am determined to focus my energies on positives. My intent is to find one important item during the course of each day to be thankful for and boast about it. Today I am thankful for having the opportunity to sleep in.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Lifelong Friendships


My team went out on mission without me today. It’s only two guys, a MSG and a SSG, but their absence was felt knowing they were outside the wire. I met them back in June, home station drill, one of the first days I enjoyed within my new assignment. The first thing I told my team at our initial get together included one of my key principles of leadership: that I will approach  each of them first as a human being then rank and position held in the unit second.

I based this approach on the belief that although the unit and my team specifically have roots deeply embedded across the four corners of the nation, we all have base motivations driving us. We want to serve in the Army (or the military, for that matter) that what we do should matter, but really, at the end of the day, what we all truly want to be able to go home and be with the loved ones for whom we work.

This approach has served me well in the past, generally speaking, but has often times led to being taken advantage of. On such an adventure as a military deployment, friendship bonds potentially form that surpass levels seen in a wide variety of friendships elsewhere, simply due to the nature of the business. The bonds are not better, just different.

Such was the case, or I assumed, when I joined the team within which I currently serve. One in particular stood out as one with glaring potential for a friendship….no, wait…a brotherhood…that would last for a lifetime. As time moved forward and the unit came together in pre-deployment phase, my time with the one increased dramatically and the depth of what I believed was a real friendship developed, I opened myself up and allowed vulnerability. Then we arrived in theater, where true colors exploded all over the big screen. My value diminished to the point of an entry-level recruit in his eyes and my trust disappeared. My dedication to duty remains and though work will continue professionally, I highly doubt contact will sustain after the deployment.

Back to my team and our initial meeting. Originally there were four of us, but we lost one due to admin issues that simply couldn’t get worked out. Otherwise, he would have only added to what now have. My NCOIC resides in Brooklyn, NY and makes the personal claim politically as a liberal while I lean toward the conservative. Yet as we continue to carry on conversations and discussions, our political stances truly are not so far apart as the media would want them to be. He is married and while hasn’t ever had the need to drive a car in his life, he is driving one the biggest rigs we have in the unit quite proficiently. He also has a 3 year old little girl and wants desperately to get home safely to be with them.

I also have the token old guy working for me. Although working for me may not be the right description since he is a former Lieutenant Colonel, retired, re-enlisted back into the NCO Corps as a SSG. And is he old. I’m a spring chicken compared to this bald-headed old fart with a sense of humor as long as the day. He is humble, jovial, and smart with wisdom coming from a BC perspective on many things. I call him SSG when others are around, but “sir” comes out more often than not. His desire is to return home to his wife, kids, and grandkids too.

These two guys are making my existence here worthwhile. We have set the standard for what a mission outside the wire looks like, and the team has earned a reputation as the safest team in the unit. We have yet to miss a weekly suspense and as a team of three, ours is the strongest, most tightly knit group. These two will end up being the ones I carry with me for a lifetime, and although we are only a month into this adventure I can honestly say the only way this group will separate is failure of leadership on my part. Back to principle one: We are all human beings wanting only after putting in a good day’s work to go home and be with our families.
From left to right: SSG Tim Cyprian and MSG Victor Alicea on 11SEP2017 in front of one of our two trucks we use to drive to our secondary location for work. I was supposed to have been in this photo, but now it seems appropriate that I would have this pic.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Quick update over last two weeks


25AUG17

Today is Friday, August 25th, 2017 and I have been in Iraq two full weeks. The first week here I spent doing a hand-off with the unit rep I replaced. My job is similar to supervising a few dealership maintenance branches. The difference being our maintenance vehicles are tanks and other combat-related vehicles. I work out of two offices. One office is found within my unit’s headquarters, where the vast majority of admin-related tasks get done. The second office isn’t really an office as much as a location. My second office requires a bit more attention to detail, so more to come.

I few events stand out in my mind during the first two weeks, which, if I were back home, would equate to an annual training and I would returning home soon. Key events: I was afforded the opportunity to be served tea in an Iraqi Brigadier General’s office. Granted, the BG is corrupt beyond measure, but still, it was a pretty cool event. His is the office that looks more like a Vegas Club than a BG’s office.

This week I took over missions. No longer baby-sat, I am in full charge of my section’s mission and we pulled it off nicely. ON Tuesday while strolling through the compound, we suddenly came across a 120mm tank round nonchalantly placed on the ground and left. What a lovely surprise.

I’ve also enjoyed a couple medical issues this week. Upon arrival in this region, my skin started to react unhappily. I’ve been experiencing acne sporadically with only my face and hands being exceptions to the rule. One pop-up on my lower left back turned into a nasty cyst that required being surgically removed on Tuesday. I have a great video of it, if you’re interested. Prior to and for the last two days, that tiny area has been a pain in my back. Literally. Especially when I put on my protective vest. THAT was a highly emotional experience.

Immediately following this event on Thursday was  the result of enjoying the dining facility’s Indian Cuisine Night with lamb curry. My stomach has not been the same for going on two days now. Keep in mind no interior latrines can be found anywhere on this entire compound. In order to get to the nearest “repository” whether I am in my room or in the office, I need to walk a solid 50-100m. And then the facilities are nothing more than a porta-pottie or latrine/shower facility.

So sums up my first two weeks, leaving out only a few things that happened that are of more interest to my military compadres than not. Overall I am doing well. Personality issues are more troublesome than work-related issues, but that’s always to be expected until the dust settles. Those are the things that stress me out at work.

On the home front, I am able to facetime using the internet I have in my room, which allows me near daily contact back home. While I miss my wife, daughter, and grandson, being able to see them while talking with them eases the homesickness. I have been authorized the taking and sending of videos to Bracken, so I can stay in contact with the kiddos and teachers, too. I find great therapy in doing such an activity. Once my back heals up (Nice marble-sized hole) I will hit the gym regularly. I am back in touch with my coach and look forward to hearing his voice in my head again too.

Friday and Sunday morning are my only days off. I am ten hours ahead of Vegas time. So, if you feel like reaching out on facetime, email me ahead of time so I can turn on my connection. It is always good to hear from the States! That’s about it for this update. Stay tuned for more news out of the desert.

From US to Iraq: Clothing and Environment. A satiricle look.


As the day started, my the normal routine of preparing myself for work seemed mundane. My coffee tasted different, as if it were made from some foreign water source. My room seemed smaller, as though it had reduced in size during the night while I lay attempting a form of sleep on a bed made of lumps and folds. Things seemed different, so I made a change to my normality by embracing the abnormality.

The previous attire held near and dear to my heart became a sudden distant past as I succumbed to the donning of a skin-tight under garment layer from toe to neck. A second layer of fabric then covered the first, yet was different from the first in several ways. The second layer covered all remaining exposed skin save for hands, neck, and face. Formulated from only the finest of non-breathable, flame-retardant, multi-use camouflaged pattern its sole purpose appeared only act as impenetrable defense against all things external.

My feet required attention. Their single fabric layer could only provide limited barriers against the onslaught of the day’s activities and requirements. They needed more. Engulfing each foot within a vessel constructed of extremely durable, highly think, and unforgiving leather attached to a brick-like sole, my feet were securely protected from the elements, though not without the highly agitating and constant rubbing over the leather against lightly covered skin through thinly made socks.

A cap covered the one area of the human body that releases the most body heat, and with the complete ensemble, I made my way into the world. Upon opening the exterior door, the initial attack came in the form of a 13.7 kazillion-candle-watt power light bulb.  The magnitude of the source scorched my retina and ice picks began to stab at the receptors deep in my eye sockets. Only another thinly constructed shield protected them, shaded pieces of plastic held together by cheap frames wrapping themselves around my head.

Suddenly I became engulfed in a heat source unregisterable on the British Thermal Unit scale, a veritable magnifying glass shining on me, similar to those I used on ants when I was a child. The protective layer I had donned now became an oven. My body began to slowly cook within its encapsulated cocoon.

The initial barrage was only half the attack. I was wittingly flanked by a penetrating wind that swallowed me whole. The oven experience turned from sauna-style heat to convection as wave after wave of recirculatory air patterns relentlessly dwelt blow after blow. Walking in the open environment provided a mental image of moving through a gauntlet of a thousand heat guns focused on my embittered torture. Breathing became a struggle as particles of stirred up dust and debris infiltrated my nose and lungs.

The mundane routine I had once known became a faded distant past with the new environmental factors now affecting me. My world has changed significantly and remembering how things once were only serves lowly feelings. So, to an end I stay focused and simply enjoy the moment and prepare myself for the unavoidable rainy season.